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Sometimes you end up where you are

An artistic image of two human figures, one adult one child, holding hands

Illustration by Jacey

One of Grandma’s favourite sayings had been: “Sometimes you end up where you are.” Her quirky sense of humour helped her endure the arduous decades she spent perfecting her time machine.

Now Liz had ended up in 1984, her ten-year-old daughter Sasha beside her.

They stood before the holiday window spectacle of Canford’s Furniture Store. The room-sized window displays along Main Street featured extravagant scenes that attracted visitors from hundreds of miles around — and from decades in the future.

“This is so cool.” Sasha crouched in front of the building’s corner scene depicting an icy stream, snowy forested banks and animatronic deer and raccoons. “It even smells like Christmas here!”

Liz bit back a giddy laugh. She thought it stank of moisture and car exhaust, but she wouldn’t naysay Sasha. There was something magical about standing before a scene she’d loved throughout her childhood Christmases — and one that Sasha couldn’t experience in the present. Around 2000, this building would be converted into law offices, its windows exchanged for soulless walls.

Liz had decided to come to this particular date because she’d found it highlighted several times in Grandma’s scientific journals, no explanations included.

“Look, Mom, that deer has squinty eyes like it’s throwing up!” Sasha said with a giggle, pointing to a mechanical deer that bobbed its head over the stream.

“I think it’s supposed to be drinking,” said Liz.

“Who are you?”

Liz turned around and gasped. There stood Grandma, alive, her shaggy hair black, streaked with silver. She shouldn’t be in downtown tonight! They shouldn’t be meeting at all!

Sasha stayed quiet as she shrank against Liz’s hip; she’d been well-schooled in how to handle herself in the past.

“Oh, hi. We’re here to see the displays.” Liz kept her voice casual.

Grandma advanced on her, blatantly curious. Christmas lights dappled her face. “Who are you?” she repeated. “You stand like a woman in my family.”

Liz had been so careful to acquire period-appropriate attire, to fix their hair just-so, but of course Grandma recognized the family stance.

Grandma frowned. “You can’t — you look like my little Liz, but —”

Liz couldn’t hold back any longer. “But Liz is four years old and should be tucked into bed by now, huh?”

Grandma inhaled sharply. “You are — you did — my machine, it works?” she whispered.

A car rumbled by, blaring a Bing Crosby tune. “Yes.” The simple word created a small cloud in the crisp night air.

“And who are you?” Grandma asked, kneeling before Sasha.

Sasha looked to Liz for permission to speak. “I’m Sasha.”

“My middle name.” Grandma shook her head in awe as she stood. “I can’t believe this.”

“I’m sorry,” Liz blurted out. “I didn’t think you’d be anywhere near downtown tonight. I only came to this day because your journals —” She stopped. “Oh.”

“What did — what do I write?” Grandma asked.

“This date’s mentioned several times like it’s important. I guessed you made some big discovery today in your lab.”

“Huh. I suppose I did make a discovery, but not there.” Grandma smiled.

Liz thought back over her life. As a child, she’d loved following Grandma around in the lab — and Grandma had adored her company. While the rest of the family increasingly dismissed Grandma as a crackpot, Liz’s faith had never wavered. Once she was done at university, she’d returned home to become caretaker of Grandma and her — at long last — functional time machine.

“Can I hug you?” Sasha asked.

“Oh sweetie.” Grandma opened her arms to accept the girl, who promptly broke out in sobs. Grandma met Liz’s eye. “I guess in your time I’m …? No, don’t answer. Of course I’d be … gone. You look about 40, after all. I’d be nearing 100.”

“All I’ll say is that Sasha misses you more than anything.” And I miss you more than anything, Liz wanted to say, but could not give voice to her heartbreak.

“Good,” Grandma said softly. “I’m glad I get to know her.”

They stayed quiet as another family walked by, the children squealing with delight over the Santa’s-workshop display.

“We can’t … we can’t stay long,” Liz said. “It takes months to charge up the machine and make the calculations, and we only get three hours maximum in a visit.” She froze. “I shouldn’t have said that much. You always told me to never meddle in the past —”

“I haven’t told you yet, have I? So you’re not in trouble. Come here, you.” Sasha moved back, and Liz stepped into Grandma’s embrace. Liz had become accustomed to Grandma’s feebleness in her last years; her youthful strength came as a wonderful surprise.

“I miss you so much,” Liz whispered. “I don’t want you to be disappointed in me —”

“Where did you take the machine last?”

Liz blinked. “Back a century to birdwatch at the lake when it still existed. I wanted Sasha to see an impact of modern agriculture.”

“Some of the birds are extinct now,” Sasha added softly.

“And now you’re both here. You’re using my machine to learn. To help Sasha learn. I’m proud of you, Lizzy. I’m proud to know the woman you become.”

Liz’s eyes burned. “‘Sometimes you end up where you are,’ right?”

Grandma squeezed her and stepped back. “Let’s use our remaining time up right. Sasha, have you looked at Santa’s workshop yet? He has a long scroll of names — let’s see if you can find yours!”


Grandma and Sasha walked hand in hand to the next window. Liz dried her eyes and took in a deep breath of dankness and car exhaust. It smelt like Christmas.

The story behind the story: Sometimes you end up where you are

Beth Cato reveals the inspiration behind her latest tale.

“Sometimes you end up where you are” was one of my grandma’s favourite sayings. She died in June 2018 at the age of 94. This story emerged from the grief of my first Christmas with her gone. She loved Christmas, you see, and never lost her child-like glee for that time of year. The music, the lights, the Santa Clauses — she adored it all.

Her loss made me think of another loss, a tradition from my childhood that I could never share with my teenage son.

My hometown of Hanford, California, had a distinct pink multi-storey building downtown called Hanford Furniture. Their holiday window displays were exactly as described in the story, from Santa Claus’s workshop to the corner exhibit with a snowy forest and animatronic animals. People would actually drive from hours away to see the windows.

I married and moved away from my hometown at the age of 20. About a year later, the furniture store owners retired and sold the building. The bright pink exterior became dour grey. The old display windows were walled off. A magical part of my childhood was forever gone … unless I could travel back in time.

Writing this story was a kind of therapy for me as I twined my losses together in a new form — a form that mourns even as it celebrates a person and a place now gone. Grandma would heartily approve.


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